so yesterday the plan was that gundam would come over, alcohol would be consumed, dreamcast games would be played, etc etc, except that he disappeared and never came over. is it me or does this happen every weekend? anyway, whatever. i ended up playing jgr for a while and then walking down to the beach around eleven; the weather was gorgeous and nobody else was out, so it was pretty cool. i stopped in at this ‘discount grocery’ i go to a lot because it’s the closest store to my house, and the middle aged iranian dude behind the counter was flirting with me. it cracked me up. i’m this scruffy kid who comes in for snapple twice a day and he wants to know do i have a husband.

easter, yeah. i guess. i don’t really celebrate it in the sense that i’m not christian, but i suppose if you want to get technical it’s not even really a christian holiday, just a pagan spring thing that was appropriated because of its convenient timing. but i don’t celebrate that either. my pretending-to-be-pagan days are long over, thankfully. chrissy and i did easter stuff last year, and it was fun and all, but i think that’s more a function of me liking jelly beans and egg salad and watching chrissy explode things in the microwave than anything else.

i think i’m going to hole up and work today; i’m not in the mood for gallivanting with others. i mean, i’m always sort of antisocial but i’m also sort of in a bad mood today. maybe i’ll hit the beach again when it gets dark. i do sort of miss being able to see stars, though. the price you pay for living in the city, i suppose.

yeah. i’m feeling rather unenthused in general.