listening to: background office noise

craving: the weekend. oh, how i’m looking forward to the weekend.

last night: i went over to the police station after work. it took forever and just made me feel more depressed. i don’t want to think about any of this any more.

after that ordeal, i walked over to the hmv at herald square and looked at headphones for a while. i got to see james, finally. james is one of those people who i’m just really glad to have in my life. the same goes for krystal, who showed up a little later to meet john, who also works at hmv. we all sat and dished about the wallet incident, and we agreed that it sucks but isn’t very surprising. krystal was furious that he would do this to me - i think she feels i’m too nice or innocent or something and that i shouldn’t have to deal with this. i wouldn’t say that i’m either particularly nice or particularly innocent, but i appreciate how everyone’s been so helpful and supportive. anyway. james was a sweetheart and krystal a doll, as always.

i went home around 9:15 and missed the last q train by about three seconds. but that’s ok. i got on the next d and fell asleep almost immediately, and only half-woke up just in time to leap off at my stop about an hour later. when i got home i found that my new ponyfalls from tartblossom had arrived - fun fun. they’re much more massive than i was expecting, and much longer. i might have to cut them or something. i wasn’t expecting there to be so much hair involved. still, they should be fun to wear if i ever scrape together the time and energy to go out. i’d love to go to lbv tonight, but i doubt that by the time i get home after work i’m going to have any desire to get all dressed up and head back to the city, only to miss yet another night of sleep. maybe this weekend, though. it is, after all, a three day weekend - i might be recovered enough by saturday or sunday night that i’ll be all set to go out.

i called jamar at work and talked to him till about midnight, then went to sleep. i wonder if i’d like working nights. probably, if i could still have my weekends off, because then i’d be able to go out more without it fucking up my sleep schedule. jamar, however, does not have weekends off right now and there’s not much to do on monday and tuesday nights if you don’t dig alchemy or electra-city.

estimated hours of sleep: five

so far today: getting up this morning was such the challenge. i think it’s because not only was i not asleep for long enough, but i was right in the middle of this really involved dream when my alarm went off, and i always have issues waking up in the middle of a dream. i don’t even remember now what it was about. i ate a handful of raw espresso beans before i left the house to help me wake up. i’m such a junkie.

current plans for later today: i want to go to lbv. i really do. but i think i’m going to be working late, and i’m so tired. sigh.

i will have been here six months fairly soon, which means i start getting vacation time, as well as a few sick and personal days. maybe i should take some friday off so i can actually enjoy myself at lbv for once. i love the event, but i hate never getting to stay late enough and i hate going to work the next day.

what else: i’m placing an order today with ragdoll. fake hair is so much fun, especially when office dress code keeps me from dyeing my own hair interesting colors. speaking of which, i need to re-dye it black.