listening to stuck in my head: depeche mode - personal jesus

craving: cheerios. the regular kind.

last night: after work i went to go see james at the herald square hmv. we were going to go just get coffee or something, but as we were walkingto starbucks, we passed the empire state building. i’d never been to the empire state building, so james decided we should go check it out. the lines were rather absurd, especially for seven thirty on a thursday night, but we weren’t in any particular hurry so it was okay. when we got to the observatory and went outside… it was gorgeous. it was sort of hazy out, and the sun was going down, so the city lights started showing up everywhere as we stood there. with those weird binocular things that you pay a quarter to use, we managed to pick out the parachute jump at coney island, near my house, and the cemetery near james’s house, and the statue of liberty. it was cool and slightly windy out, and starting to get dark. we bought an overpriced soft pretzel and pepsi and watched the end of the sunset and i realized that i’ve been living in new york for a year now. a year seems like such a long time… and so much has happened in the past year. i’ve moved twice, the only two times i’ve ever moved in my life. i’m supporting myself now. i broke up with adam and lost contact with a lot of my massachusetts friends, but i’ve met spencer and so many other people here who’ve affected my life. i’ve only been home… i think four, maybe five times. for brian’s funeral, thanksgiving, christmas, once early in the summer, and then last weekend. i’ve only spent a total of about a week and a half, two weeks at home in the past year. and i don’t really miss it.

so all in all, yesterday was cool. i’d missed james, so it was good to see him again, and i got to finally go to the empire state building. when i got home around nine thirty, i took a really long hot bath and went to bed. i’m starting to feel a lot better. my throat’s still not happy, and i’m still exhausted, but the penicillin’s finally doing its thing and i think the weekend should take care of the rest of it.

estimated hours of sleep: nearly eight, if you count the time i spent asleep on the subway.

so far today: i’m wearing these really ugly pants today, but they’re the most comfortable pants in the world. they’re the ones i brought back from my parents’ house, that i went sailing in on saturday. they’re really soft, if a little too big. the only thing is they’re this army green color. bleh. ah well. today i’m all about comfort.

current plans for later today: i’m hanging out with spencer after work, for the first time in ages. it’s weird to think how little time i actually spend with him now, when only a month or two ago we were living together. i mean, i still see him a lot, and he’s still my best friend, but it’s not 24/7 like it was for a while there. and that’s fine. when i see someone that much, i don’t appreciate it, really. so i’m looking forward to spending time with spencer. we might go to sephora or something. i may or may not go to absolution tonight - i have to see how i am physically and financially. since i’m not completely better yet, it would probably be a good idea for me to go home and go to bed, but i’m also kind of restless. so maybe, maybe not.