listening to stuck in my head: peter murphy: deep

craving: the end of the week so i can go to the doctor and then just sleep

last night: i’ve been slowly starting to feel like hell over the past few days - i think i’ve caught strep here at work. i’m incredibly susceptible to it for some reason - i used to get it at least once a year in high school. i hate strep. it’s one of the diseases that i can’t just make go away by sleeping and drugging myself up - you have to actually go get a prescription and take your amoxicillin or penicillin or whatever. it’s such a pain. i can’t afford to miss any work right now because i need the money, so i can’t go to the doctor till friday or saturday, and since i don’t have health insurance it’s probably going to end up that i’ll go get a throat culture at the emergency room on saturday and pay for the whole damn thing myself. blah. my immune system sucks. it feels like i only just got over having mono.

estimated hours of sleep: sevenish

so far today: my throat is killing me - not in that scratchy, sore-throat way, but in the way it did when i had mono. my tonsils are absurdly swollen, as are my lymph nodes, and swallowing is less than pleasant. i’m taking ibuprofen just so i can swallow without cringing.

current plans for later today: this is either strep or a mono relapse. i think it’s been long enough that it would be unlikely to be a mono relapse, but the symptoms are all there. i can’t decide which is preferable - mono will go away on its own, but strep will go away faster, even though you have to get treatment for it.

what else: did i mention that i hate being sick and not having health insurance? it’s another part of supporting myself, i suppose. but supporting myself is a lot more fun when i’m well enough to enjoy it - it’s times like these i wouldn’t really mind having someone around to tuck me in and bring me soup.